Tuesday, August 08, 2006
wow today was quite an alrite day .for the first time i saw the whole sku so united ,joy was spreading like an fire .for me inside me body was germs getting together making me worned out .well done ,heidi,anne,sufern!ur marching improved .went tm wif arshu had lots of fun .saw many many people today .saw jerica ,jeslyn,mayin,melsa,laura,derrick's fren,jiyang,calvin,nadine .we was coming from parkway after school,had decided to meet up at pp macs first .took 31 and saw joseph ,i was like trying to avoid him like crazy .arshu lahs! keep laughing at him den he know .stupid woman .den later i saw the ji in the bus,throw tissue paper at him oso never realise .den damn hyper at the time so i called pui ah ask the name ,damn like nth-better-to-do .den call he oni turn halfway,call again oso turn halfway .in the end call den later turn .den later watch click, me n arshu laughin laughin in the cinema den later arshu hear eh this voice like damn familiar ahs ,sound like nadine sia .den i was like ya sia .i go the chair dare i go nadine.turn back ,nadine lim li ping .sia la sitting infront of me .during the movie cried like shit .stupid nadine keep laughin, dunno bet wat wif arshu say dun cry den give $2 .i tot she say cry den give me $2 sia .den later light on,sia la i see calvin again .den he turn back smile,crazy man at first ask me goin parkway ,i say no.thought he goin in the end never .but its a nice show after all .so pple reading go watch alrite? hais, happy enough im starting to forget him .once again last saturday afternoon ,saw him at classic .for the first time he stayed dare long enough for me to even took more den a glance at him .he cut his hair ,obviously more handsome den before .why cant he just get out of my life ,if i dun see him, i wun even think anymore .but sometimes,i do feel like seeing him .i know every saturday he wil be at parkway .hope and disappointed at the same time .but i will tel myself nicole soon u can do it .so wat if u do haf frens to confide in? u stil have ur beloved blog to say everytink out .stil rmb tat time i drink at home bcoz i was so stress thinking of him,sku,police case,family .i drank beer ,in the parents found out kana scolding .why i even drink to forget? get drunk den go sleep .cant even cut myself,cant even drink,cant even write in my dairy,dont haf frens! what is this .this is nonsense ahs .im staying strong for now .its been a long time since i cried and today i let it out .sometimes i always look at others thinking why are they so perfect ,while im even not .many would say god created u like this .maybe putting me for more obsticles to go thru ,but i must admit that the obsticles tat god gave me its truly difficult .ACCEPTANCE 10:16 PM
